Feeling down… down… down…

I feel like I have been down in the gutters for the past few days and have not been able to figure out why. I had a great time riding with Cary EMS on Sunday and ever since then I have found it very hard to put a smile on my face… until this morning! When a co-worker asked me what’s wrong and I told her I was not sure… and she jokingly said “it’s this place” and it hit me like a ton of bricks. She is right! Don’t get me wrong, I like my job for the most part (well not too much the job it self, but the people I work with). But having tasted something else, a job that makes a difference in someone’s life, a job that makes me feel satisfied and proud, makes coming to this job that much harder. I always tried to look at my job as more then just a paycheck, but lately that is all it feels like.

I have submitted my application to one EMS unit and have been trying to gather up all the paperwork I need for the other station. I know it takes time for them to review everything and the process it self can be a little drawn out, but I have never really been the patient kind of gal and I know that refreshing my email account 10 times a day is not going to make them reply to me any sooner. At least I was able to schedule another ride-a-long with my favorite Paramedic for the 24^th, so this way I have something to look forward to.

I hate feeling like this. I know it affects my family and everyone else around me and I hate that. I know that I need to push through these crappy feelings and come out the other end stronger… but I also know that it’s not easy. It’s not like waking up the next day and everything feeling all better with puppies and rainbows. I know I am the only one who can make things better and I have the tools I need to accomplish my final goal

So… I will think happy thoughts and try to come up with a game plan to make things better.



BEWARE of random VENT!!!

How is it that in the year 2008 when the science behind Birth Control has been advanced beyond anyone’s imagination, can people say “I accidentally got pregnant”? Did you know that when a man and women have sex, and when the sperm meets the egg it makes a baby? I mean WTF people. Either educate your self (because that makes you sound DUMB as a branch on a tree) or don’t tell people that you got ACCIDENTLY pregnant. You are not freaking 15 (even at that age I am sure people still know about Birth Control).

Different forms of Birth Control
Birth Control Method’s and FAQ’s
How babies are made

I mean I googled Birth Control and came up with the above three links in less then a second…

Educate your self… because if you don’t use protection you will get pregnant!!!