Hmmm where to start?

Here is a little time-line breakdown…

January –

Celebrated SRR’s 30^th birthday

Celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary

I started school

We moved in to our new townhome

Scratch N Sniff Productions is now in full gear

February -

Still in school 3 nights a week

Celebrated Valentine’s Day

Drove to Florida for the first GNCC race

SRR raced his first ever GNCC race

Cleaned out the old apartment and have been settling in at our new place

March –

Still in school 3 nights a week and it is starting to takes it toll on my mind and body

Did my first Ride-A-Long with Cary EMS

April –

Still in school 3 nights a week and feel like I can barely function

SRR broke his collar bone

Found a new therapist that I really like

SRR is scheduled for surgery

SRR had surgery

Hands on testing started and finished in 2 weeks (and I survived it)

May –

Took and passed my Final exam in class

Last day of class was May 5^th

Celebrated Mother’s Day in Virginia

State Exam is scheduled for May 21^st…..

So, it has been crazy to say the least... but it has also been very challenging in many ways. Trying to juggle a full time job, a household and full-time school at the same time is no easy task, but I have no regrets for giving it a try. Through out the past few months I feel like I have grown as a person and as a wife. I feel like I have been focusing on one thing and one thing only for the past few years and to realize that some things are completely out of my hands has been a hard pill to swallow, but has also made me realize that there are other things in life that I have full control over.

I feel like I lived my life for the past few years focusing on nothing but fertility/infertility issues we have gone through and I was sinking deeper and deeper in to depression and denial. See I always thought I had my life outlined and planned and things were/would workout just the way I had it drawn out... but when something like infertility hits you in the face and you realize one day that you have no control over it, it is very hard to move on and function.  You feel like all your plans and dreams have been ripped away from you. You grow angry towards others, you experience uncontrollable jealousy, things you enjoyed on a daily basis are no longer enough to satisfy you and that is when you find yourself in a deep black hole and feel the life being sucked out of you. That is where I was late last years... I felt like without a child, our lives would never be complete and I found my self isolated from everything and everyone.

Then I woke up one day and realized that I needed to be grateful for the AMAZING life I had/have. I have the most amazing/supportive/funny/loving husband anyone could ever ask for, I have two amazing four legged kids at home, I have a beautiful home to come home to everyday and I am surrounded by people who love me for who I am and nothing else. This is not to say that I have 100% come to terms with the idea that we may never have kids, but for now I am OK with it.  I have learned to be happy for others and move on.

Soooo... to bring it all back together...

I decided to do something for me, something that would make me proud of what I did and appreciate things in life unlike many  others are not able to. And I found the answer in going back to school to be an EMT, to help others at their worst time, to be there as a shoulder to cry on, to offer arms when a hug is needed and to be able to make a difference in someone's life every single day. It may not be the path I always saw my self going down, but it is the path I chose to do going forward and I cannot wait for this part of my journey to begin.

Come out – Come out where ever you are…

Hmmmm let’s see… Poontater has not been up to much lately, just sort of slacking on the blogging side of things. Nothing too exciting, but here is a little summary for ya:

• The foot is still healing. As of two days ago I started wearing shoes (well more like my Croc’s and slippers). Yup… you read that right. I have been wearing slippers to work and it’s awesome.
• We had snow and 86 degree’s in the same week and it was GREAT.
• I saw Watchmen and thought it completely SUCKED (in my opinion) and it was about 2.5 hours too long.
• SRR and I are going out for our first Meet-Up tomorrow night and I am very excited. We are meeting the Cary/Raleigh area 20’s/30’s couple for dinner and some drinks.
• I was in the slumps after being off my medication for almost 3 weeks and the world completely sucked. But I am back on it now and things are only half sucking.
• SRR and I are going to Jacksonville in 3 weeks to watch Supercross live and I cannot wait. I love having something so awesome to look forward to.
• I went in for my physical yesterday and apparently I am SUPER DUPER healthy. I have no early signs of diabetes, high blood pressure or heart problems (other then that my heart beats much slower then an average person, which I already knew). My cholesterol was perfect. This made me super happy; because diabetes and high blood pressure runs in my family history and being overweight I was a little concern. But this is GREAT news.  

I guess that’s pretty much it. See, told you it was nothing too exciting. Now that I am out of the slump’s I will be more active on poontater.com – stay tuned! 

Sugar says Hi

Bad Patient

Today was my first day back at work after being off for a week. Around 8:30AM I started thinking that I made a mistake coming back to work and that I should have waited until at least next Monday, but after elevating my foot and icing it 20 minutes on 20 minutes off my foot started to feel a little better (still throbbing) but not too bad. I managed to stay put at my desk for the most of the day (with the exception of a few potty brakes and going to lunch with hubby). But since I got off work it feels like I set down maybe 30 minutes total and it is now 9:39EST. I managed to do a quick CVS shopping trip, make dinner and bake a pumpkin pie and I am now paying for my stupitidy. My foot is THROBBING and I still need to take a bath before I can relax, elevate it and ice it. I don’t think Dr Tomey would be very happy with me… but I promise to take it easier tomorrow.

Ohhhh and I was lucky enough to preview the hopital bill today… and somehow I managed to not throw up my lunch…

Post-Op Appt

I had my post-op with Dr Tomey today and it was very uneventful. They took two x-rays of my foot, then removed the bandages (it felt soooo good to have everything off my foot) and I got to wipe my foot down with a wet wipe. The incision looked good and clean and apparently the stitches will be removed in 2 weeks. So he wrapped my foot up with clean bandages and told me that starting this weekend I can remove the bandages to take showers (don’t worry I have been bathing, just been taking a bath with my foot dangling out the tub) and that I should contunie to ice and keep my foot elevated as much as possible. Ohhh and I get to return to work tomorrow – I am sort of looking forward to it. I really do like where I work and have a great boss. She already warned people that if they need anything that they either need to come to me or find other ways of getting it… he he gotta love her.

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