Goal# 73 – Personal

Of course I can’t tell you what the goal was (you know it being personal and all), but I get to mark this goal off my list. Woohooo and surprisingly I did not mind it as much as I thought I might (:

Goal#55 – Eat something I have never eaten before

This might come across strange to many, but  I ate Dairy Queen for the first time. I had a cheeseburger, fries and a Cookie Dough Blizzard. Of course I have had a burger and fries before but it was my first time trying out a blizzard and I must say I was super dissapointed. I mean people act like its the best thing in the world and always seem to look at me like I am an alien when I tell that I have never had a blizzard before. I tried the cookie dough blizzard and it did nothing for me.

But with that, I get to mark of Goal# 55 off my list.

C-H-A-N-G-E

Change has always been something I have avoided. Most of the time I like things the way they are, or even if I don’t like things the way they are my fear of change would take over and cripple me to move forward. My fear kept me at a job I disliked and hated more and more everyday. It kept me from going to school to get my degree. It kept me from taking the leap to sell the house. It kept me from 100% agreeing to move to NC… you get the idea! This was nothing new to me. I have always been afraid of change, but as an adult I found it to be more and more crippling and it started to effect the way I felt about myself and life in general.

But the thing is that, every time I take a chance and take the leap I am always shocked at the end results and the AWESOME feelings that come with it. Like letting my old boss know that I was leaving… as scared as I was, man it felt so good. Of course I had to deal with the freak out moments of not having a job and the fact that after being somewhere for 7 years I was now in the looking for a job field and interviews scare the crap out of me (we will talk about my social issues at another time). But in the end I DID IT! I am now at a job like a like and could possibly see a future within the company if I wanted to.

Now let’s talk about selling the house and moving to NC. That was about 4+ years in the making. I had many many deep issues related to selling the house and moving somewhere where I felt I would be very vulnerable because I did not know anyone. But after a lot work with therapy and support from SRR I was ready to take the jump and move. Once I felt comfortable in my own skin and I felt strong as a person the whole process came very easy. I mean leaving my friends and what I have known as life for 10+ years was very hard, but I was now looking forward to our new life and was truly excited (without the fear taking over) for the first time since the NC conversation first came up. I know that my SRR will always be there for me and he knows that I will always be there for him no matter what. And as scary and lonely the process could have been, we had each other (and of course Ollie & Sugar). Once we were ready things just fell in the place like it was all meant to be… and one thing after another, things worked them self’s out and September 2008 we hit the road. And to this day I am so happy that we made the change in our lives and moved. I love being closer to extended family and everything else about NC (the cost of living kind of sucks), but everything else makes up for it.

I am a much different person then I was just 2 years ago and it’s OK. Change is not always going to come easy and I know that, but the more I trust my self the easier each step will be.

Now for another huge change in my life – I need to submit my application for Nursing School.  

Changes…

I have decided to make some changes to my 101 list. I have realized that there are a few items on my list that I can probably no longer complete (due to distance…etc) and one that I have no control over to be putting a time line on.

Old Goal# 25 – Have a healthy baby

New Goal# 25 – Organize all the greeting cards I have been holding on to

Old Goal# 82 – Go to Zilker Park every year on Christmas Day

New Goal# 82 – Visit 3 new places

There might be a few more changes coming in the near future, but for now these are the only alterations.

Goal# 37 – Become a more positive person (In Progress)

This is a very important goal for me. I used to be a lot more positive and had a much more positive outlook on things. Somewhere between now and then I feel like I have become a bitter-negative person. But I have been trying very hard to be the positive person I used to be and even though at times I find it hard (especially when it comes to personal things) I have found it to be very rewarding. There are definitely those times where I just want to be mad/bitter/selfish/jealous, but for the most past it has been getting easier and easier. I don’t want to be that person anymore (not that I have ever wanted to be), but $hit happens right. Certain things in life changes who we are or who we used to be and it’s our job to push all that behind and try to be become who we want to be.

I know that it might be a while before I am able to check this goal off my list, but I know that I am working on it and it feels good every step of the day.

Goal# 31 – Become a Donor

Man… I am hitting the year running. I get to mark something off my list and its only the second of January.

Well, Rob and I finally got off our lazy arses and went to the DMV today. We presented the lovely lady (insert sarcasm here) with our paperwork and were handed a ticket number. The first hour of wait was OK. Second hour of wait was just painful in every shape of form (hey, you try standing on a broken foot for 2 + hours and get back to me). But I must say, we saw our share of CRAZY people during our wait and also got to watch the lovely lady mentioned above go from sort of bitchy to a MEGA BITCH in no time. Anywho, around 4:00PM EST my number got called and I was able to proceed to taking my written test (yes, NC is smart like that and they make everyone re-take their written exam to get a license). I managed to pass the test with flying colors and was handed a piece of paper to take to the lovely lady mentioned above to have my photo taken and I am now an official NC resident and I have a horrid license to prove it. But back to the reason for the post, I am now an Organ Donor. Not necessarily sure that they can ever use any of my organs due to an illness when I was a child, but I am an Organ Donor nonetheless. Being a Donor is something I have always wanted to do and not being a religious person I don’t think I need to go where ever we go after death with all my pieces only to have them rot, when they can save someone’s life. I feel great about being able to mark this goal off my list.

Remember – Recycle Yourself!

Taking a look back at 2008

Even though I would have liked to have completed more goals this year – I am going to cut my self some slack. 2008 has been a crazy busy year with plenty of ups and downs. But overall it was a decent year. Here is what I have managed to knock off my list in the year of 2-0-0-8

Goal# 3 – Buy a Coach Purse

Goal# 26 – Finish Sugar’s Bed

Goal# 30 – Get back on the dirt bike

Goal# 39 – Start and keep up with an Address Book

Goal# 40 – Learn to knit

Goal# 44 – Get in touch with an old friend

Goal# 46 – Finish the garden area in our backyard

Goal# 53 – Keep a potted plant alive

Goal# 58 – Get a promotion/new job

Goal# 63 – Get to work on-time for a week

Goal# 65 – Tell the ladies in my group, how much I appreciate them

Goal# 66 – Visit the Blue Bell Factory

Goal# 81 – Put new recipes in my recipe book

Goal# 83 – Try 5 new restaurants (5/5)

Goal# 87 – Take a Wilton Cake decorating class

Goal# 91 – Carve a pumpkin for the first time

Goal# 92- Make a new Friend

Goal# 93 – Go kayaking/canoeing

Goal# 95 – No TV for a week

Goal# 100 – Wear PJ’s to work

Goal # 101 – Get the house painted

Goal#11 – Twelve out of Twelve

Reading Eclipse marked my 12th book for the year. For someone who did not enjoy reading, this year has been a great eye opener and I have really enjoyed reading and plan on keeping it up. Eclipse was pretty good and it left you wanting more…

Edward’s soft voice came from behind me.

I turned to see him spring lightly up the porch steps, his hair windblown from running. He pulled me into his arms at once, just like he had in the parking lot, and kissed me again. This kiss frightened me. There was too much tension, too strong an edge to the way his lips crushed mine–like he was afraid we had only so much time left to us.

As Seattle is ravaged by a string of mysterious killings and a malicious vampire continues her quest for revenge, Bella once again finds herself surrounded by danger. In the midst of it all, she is forced to choose between her love for Edward and her friendship with Jacob–knowing that her decision has the potential to ignite the ageless struggle between vampire and werewolf. With her graduation quickly approaching, Bella has one more decision to make: life or death. But which is which?

Goal#44 – Old Friend

Thanks to Facebook I am now in touch with one of my bestest of friends Secil. We had been out of touch for over 13 years and I have missed her so much. She found me on Facebook and I remember wanting to cry from happiness when I saw her message.

Our friendship started 17 years ago in an old apartment complex. They used to live in the apartment above us and would always have parties and play their music really loud. Well, I decided to grow ballz one day and head up there to tell them to STFU. But instead I found my self partying and dancing along with them and the rest has been history. She is one of the nicest, kindest, most caring people I have ever known and I love her like she is my sister. We definitely laughed a lot and have also had our share of tears. Leaving her (Turkey) was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but knew that our friendship would never be lost. She just got engaged and I have been throwing around the idea of really wanting to go to Turkey for her wedding and be there with her on her special day. The date is end of April, beginning of May (they are still working on nailing an exact date), so I will put my thinking cap on and try to find a way.

Anyway – this entry marks Goal# 44 off my list. 

Goal# 39 – Address Book

Well, I didn’t necessarily buy a new Address Book, but with the help of Gmail Doc’s and the Address Book that came with my sweet sweet Mac – I have managed to create and keep up with important numbers and addresses. I felt like this was a very important task to complete, because I tend to keep people’s addresses scattered all around the place and always end up asking them again for a reminder. I am hoping to keep up with my address book and hope and pray that my system won’t die.