Archive for September, 2008
Home Sweet Home!!!
I am happy to announce that the Poontater Family has safely arrived in Cary, NC Friday September 26th. I will update with more and photos later (O:
7 Years and 67 days…
Is how long I dedicated to my job, but NO MORE. I am officially un-employed and surprisingly feel good about it. I say surprisingly because I was really worried about being terrified of not having a job, but this has been something I have wanted to do for over 4 years now.
So I spent my week training my replacement and walked her through the process of officially terminating me from the system. It was bittersweet and even though I managed to hold back most of my tears, some escaped. I do feel a huge sense of weight being lifted off my chest and will now start my journey of finding a new job. I have a phone interview lined for tomorrow afternoon, but I promised my self and SRR that I would take my time making my decision and that I would not settle for the first thing that jumped my way (unless it happens to be my dream job).
I have seriously been considering and wanting to go back to school and get my nursing degree. That is the only thing I can see my self doing and being completely satisfied day in day out. I think it is time for me to follow my dreams and full-fill my goals of getting my nursing degree. Working full time and trying to go to school full time could be/and probably will be hell for a few years, but I think in the end it will all be worth it.
Afraid…
It’s not like I have not known that we are moving in exactly 7 days 15 hours and 41 minutes… but for some reason today a sense of fear came over me. Fear of being and feeling alone. Maybe it’s because we have been spending a lot of time with our friends and soaking in everything or maybe because we really will be alone in a brand new state!
I started training my replacement yesterday and things were going very well. I was looking at the positive side of everything and feeling joy that I was finally leaving a job that I did not like. But when she was sitting at my desk and in my chair today a sense of sadness came over me. Maybe it’s just fear of change and the unknown, but whatever it is I am AFRAID. The thought of joining my last group next week, or having my last Happy Hour with my girl friends tomorrow just brings me to tears.
On the flip side of things, I am very excited to start our new life, meet new friends, be closer to family and have an opportunity to follow my dreams. I guess what I am feeling is normal (so everyone tells me), but I have not felt this way in 13 years (that was when we moved to the States). I bottled up all the fear, tears and sadness and now feel like they are creeping back up. What I have known our lives to be for the past 10 years, will now be different. Yeah Yeah I know it all sounds dramatic to most of you, but this is my blog and these are my feelings (funny or not).
I know that everything will be OK and we will look back a year from now and probably laugh at all my fears, but for now I feel AFRAID!
Goal #11 – Read one book a month for a year 8/12
First comes love. Then comes marriage. Then comes…a baby carriage? Isn’t that what all women want? Not so for Claudia Parr. And just as she gives up on finding a man who feels the same way, she meets warm, wonderful Ben. Things seem too good to be true when they fall in love and agree to buck tradition with a satisfying, child-free marriage. Then the unexpected occurs: one of them has a change of heart. One of them wants children after all. This is the witty, heartfelt story about what happens to the perfect couple when they suddenly want different things. It’s about feeling that your life is set and then realizing that nothing is as you thought it was—and that there is no possible compromise. It’s about deciding what is most important in life, and taking chances to get it. But most of all, it’s about the things we will do—and won’t do—for love.
- This was a very cute and fast book to read. I think I am going to head out and get Something Blue in the next few days.
Introducing…
Rob and I have been working on our new project. Since we started trying to conceive I have been on many baby related boards doing research and joining groups. We finally decided to create our own site/forum where people just like us can have a place to call home, make new virtual friends and gain a lot of knowledge. I want our site to adventually become a place where parents and those who are trying to swap baby items (clothes, gear, books…etc). Essentially the site will become a place to swap, swap anything from knowledge to baby items.
Please join us in welcoming Peanut Babies. Please feel free to drop by anytime and share your stories, questions and knowledge.
Love
Rob & Alev
