After having such a crappy start to my week, I decided yesterday day I am done… I am done being unhappy and depressed (of course I am not saying it wont ever happen again), but this time/today I WIN… I decided to think of things that make me happy and things that I should be grateful for and decided to make a list (if you have not figured it by now, I LOVE making lists)…
I am thankful for…
1- My amazing/funny/loving husband and bestfriend.
2- My four legged kids and their unconditional love.
3- My health.
4- My to do lists (yes, they drive me crazy at times but they also calm me down)
5- My cozy bed and the comfort it brings me.
6- My job and the security it offers me/us.
7- Education and the opportunity to learn.
8- to be given the opportunity to help others.
9- Being surrounded by caring and loving people.
10 – Air Conditioning.
11- Technology.
12…. and many many more!!!
I know I won’t always have AWESOME days and won’t always be HAPPY, but going forward I have decided that I will try and will try HARD. Depression sucks – it is such a lonely dark place to be in, I would not wish it upon my worst enemy. I also know that I do not have control over everything that happens in my life, but I want to make sure that for those things that I do have control over, keep me happy and healthy. I fought very hard to get out of my depression in the first place and having the feeling that things were going back to the dark hell they were was very scary. I don’t want to be that person, that wife, that friend, that co-worker, that daughter… I and my loved one’s deserve better, they deserve to have the bubbly, sometimes funny, loving, caring Poontater in their life.
So, I am going to make a promise to myself that I will try VERY VERY hard to push through feeling like I did earlier this week and try to keep my head up high above the dark sinking hole.
